Rahman astounded all by saying he thought of submitting suicide. Rahman who discharged the life story on him written by Krina Triok, Notes of a Dream: The Authorized Biography of AR Rahman, he said Up until 25, I used to consider suicide. The greater part of us feel we are bad enough. I lost my father…, there was this void… There were such a large number of things occurring.
Yet, that in a way made me more courageous. Demise is a lasting thing for everybody. Since everything made has an expiry date, for what reason fear anything . Things turned for the better when he assembled his account studio Panchathan Record Inn in his lawn in main residence Chennai.
Prior to that, things were torpid so perhaps it (the self-destructive inclination) showed then due to my dad’s demise. I didn’t do numerous motion pictures. I got 35 motion pictures and I completed two. Everybody pondered ‘How are you going to survive…. I was 25 at that point. Rahman uncovered, I completed the process of everything between the ages of 12 and 22.
It was exhausting for me to do all the ordinary stuff. I would not like to do it .He said “I never preferred my unique name Dileep Kumar. I don’t know why I abhorred it. I felt it didn’t coordinate my identity. I needed to wind up someone else. I felt like that would characterize and change my entire (being). I needed to dispose of all the past gear .